I have this awful dilemma ahead of me. See, I've been trying to stay
away from everyone this past week. Besides being sick and not really in
the mood for company im trying to just keep myself to myself. I've had
too much on my mind lately to share with others.
Now since I feel this way I haven't been leaving the house really. I
stayed home sick wednesday and thursday and with the exception of going
to the doctor I've just stayed here in my empty empty room. Me my
laptop, my dvds, and the cats.
I've stayed in here and have done all I can to ignore the outside
world. Tina calls and I don't answer. People txt me and I fail to
respond for the most part. Its hard and lonely at times but im starting
to feel that the alternative is worse. The more I talk to people, the
more I hang out and avoid being here the more I can feel what im missing
out on.
But now Anthony has called. Things are always simple with him. We sit
and bullshit in front of 7/11. No frills, but im breaking a rule im
setting up for myself. Stay away. Yet Anthonys out of the way. So what
do I do? Will talking to him set me off in some way?
Hmm.